Monthly Archives: October 2014
If she comes “on time” we are a month away from little Vs due date. As much as I want to meet her and let’s be honest… not be pregnant anymore (36 weeks Friday!). I am soaking up these last weeks as a family of three. The past couple months have been a whirlwind honestly. Lots of travel, nesting, prepping, organizing, work, managing of household, etc!
We are still trying to get involved in Frederick and so I joined a bible study that goes up until the week before she is due, I joined MOPS, we started going to the same church on a consistent basis and joined a care group through that – no one can say I’m not trying to make friends and grow where God has brought us! I know I will be hibernating come her arrival so I am hoping some relationships are more established before that happens but regardless I have been blessed by these new events and the line of one of my favorite songs that echoes in my mind on a regular basis about this season of life is “Never once did you leave us on our own, never once did we ever walk alone, you are faithful, God you are faithful”.
Besides the doctor visits, hospital tours, and all that “normal” jazz, here is some of what I’ve been up to this trimester in snapshots.
We are changing up our basement to make it more hang out friendly. It was sort of a catch all for the first 6 months. It’s storage, Haddon’s playroom, my office, the laundry room, and an additional living room. It was an ugly yellow before and now called “silver drop”. The color alone brightened and cleaned it up so nicely down there! I put in a couple accessories and tried to organize better and voila! A cozy place to hibernate this winter. There are still a couple things I’d love to see happen down here but I am happy with it!
this was Ms. Erna’s stuff before we moved in.
I hope to add some pictures in those frames of the kids, a pretty rug, and a white ottoman/coffee table and be done! It’s still a room of all sorts but it’s so much more peaceful!
The kids room is pretty much ready. Yes, a brother and sister are going to share a room. As you can see, I kept it really neutral. We already had white furniture, the walls were already a tan color, and I got some gray accents and called it a day. We wont move Verity in there until she sleeps through the night probably – so it might be a while before they actually share a room. Haddon’s toddler bed will go near the window. It will be tight but I wasn’t ready to give up the guest room and I feel like my house is already overtaken in kid’s stuff. I shared a room until I was in middle school and I mostly loved it! Some of my most favorite memories are when my sister would read to me and we would push our beds together to form a big “boat”. When they need their privacy we’ll reevaluate. For now, I hope they love it.
She has more clothes than her brother already. thanks friends and family!
I have tried to make a lot of meals in order to relax when she is here and to set Micah up for success. Micah doesn’t love to cook and I know he will be doing a lot for us once I am in recovery mode so I wanted to try and make things easier on him. With Haddon I tried to have the mindset of… “a baby isnt going to hold us down” and therefore just tried to do a little too much I think. To be honest I dont even remember just relaxing on the couch and enjoying my baby. He was born in the summer. If he was napping I wanted to go outside and swim or tan. We had people there all the time. Started taking him out super early, etc. There will be a lot that is different this time.
I learned to stop obsessing over weight gain and just go with it. What this looked like for me is that I stopped worrying about sugar grams and carbs and instead let myself indulge if I wanted to. Because of an old eating disorder I can get a skewed mindset very quickly when it comes to weight and I just realized that weighing myself every single morning was not helping. So I try to eat healthy most the time but indulge when I want. If feels pretty normal and I love it. Working out is still very important to me. Sometime around week 33 I stopped doing PiYo/running 6x a week and have drastically cut that down. As of now…I try to jog 3x a week and I try to still do my normal route which is a little over 2 miles, I don’t always make it and that’s okay. Neighbors also like to comment… “girl, youre gonna make that baby come out tonight”, “seriously, when are you due?”, etc. Sometimes it encourages me and sometimes I wonder why everyone has to say something to people with big bellies. I still do some workout videos I am capable of doing, they are mostly light strength training/stretching. When I get finished with a jog or have felt really great after a workout I am sometimes on the brink of tears with thankfulness. I am so glad my body can still do it and know its preparation for the marathon of labor that is coming…
Belly Shots. Most things are uncomfortable – especially sleep or trying to navigate tight corridors.There just isn’t a lot of space on a 5 ft frame. People have been asking me for weeks if I am due any day. SHHHHH – don’t ask people that! I’ve learned to just give a look and say “dont I wish” or “nope! still got a couple weeks to go!” It’s amazing what a body can do… I got that linea nigeria thing again but so far no stretch marks!
Confessions. I am SO afraid of labor this time…For most of my pregnancy we didnt know if I was going to have a scheduled c-section or not so I tried not to even think about labor. We find out for sure on Thursday, but she and my placenta are doing just fine (praise the good Lord) so the thoughts are flooding in. I don’t remember feeling that with Haddon. Probably because I was ignorant and had only read about what the labor pains felt like. Now I know…I dont even know what I am afraid of to be honest. It’s true that I can always just get an epidural, pain meds, etc. but recovery from unmedicated was so quick last time that I would just love to have that happen again. I am praying and would love to ask you for prayers for a calm and sound mind during that process and heck, leading up to it too please.
Overall… I am just so thankful for this time. This weekend is our last out of town and then I am going into hibernation mode. You can find me at home until February or March!
To my first born,
Your time as my only is wrapping up sweet one.
I could never explain to you the emotions that come with that. I am so thankful for the time we’ve had together just you and me kiddo (and dad of course)!
When I first realized you weren’t my only anymore I was a little nervous about how I could love another child like I love you, cause it’s SO much.
I’ve realized over the last couple months though that I can. It might not be the same feelings, as you will each be unique and special to me in your own ways.
You have taught my heart how to love and sacrifice in a way that only you could.
I know God’s love for me better.
I know God’s desire for my discipline better.
I know God better because of you Haddon Isaiah.
I know myself better.
I know your dad in an amazing way I never would have if it weren’t for you. I love him even bigger too because of you.
So, I can say with much confidence that I know I will love your sister.
My love for each of you will only grow as we learn to live together and love one another unconditionally.
It won’t always be easy to stretch my love and love you each the way you need to be loved at all times. Grace will be there for that. Forgiveness. Mercy. Second Chances. We’re a family.
We’re a family that seeks to love God first. It’s only through His love we can love one another well anyway.
Son, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me apart from salvation and your dad.
I love you forever and I’ll try not to call you my baby when you’re a man… but you will always be the baby that I loved first.
I am beyond thankful for every second God has allowed me to be your mama.
Byrd and I threw Lauren a shower and her mom did as well. It has been such a fun ride to be pregnant together.
Mama Downs and Jenn threw my and Sylvia a joint sprinkle. It was so sweet and my little nephew is here as I type this. He was born on the 10th and I cant wait to meet him!
Mindy and Brittany threw me a surprise sprinkle while I was down visiting in Newport News the other week. I am a blessed lady let me tell you and so is this little girl.
Lauren and I’s little compilation of celebrations… the last until they are in our arms!
It’s been almost two months since I have written which is just crazy. I had big plans to document each one of these weekend trips but it just never happened. I will give myself grace for that and do a combined little blurb post with pictures to go along with the memories! Life is moving full speed ahead and it doesnt look like it will slow much before lil miss makes her arrival.
Aunt Linda’s – Murrells Inlet, SC
We traveled down to SC to see my aunt Linda and grandma and lots of other family members. It was a short and sweet trip.
Auntie Lindie’s – Yellow Spring, WV
My youngest childhood friend and I were talking on Facebook one night about how we should see each other soon and 48 hours later she was in one of our favorite places on earth. We had so much fun catching up and you would never know we hadn’t seen each other in 4 years. On our last day there a bunch of the old girls came up 🙂
Camping/Train Ride – Ohio
The same weekend I went to Auntie’s, Micah took Haddon camping and on a train ride to the zoo. He is the best daddy.