Have you ever asked someone to put reins on you?
I did last week. I need the accountability in this season of life.
Just to name a few of the heavy on my heart things going on…
– Lots of travel – mostly personal but some for work.
– Our company is looking at new office space – long story I won’t go into online but essentially we have one of the nicest pieces of real estate in Newport News and we don’t really need it anymore.
– Our lease ends at the end of Feb and we have no idea where to (hopefully) buy because:
- My job – which a lot of you have heard and prayed with me about
- Micah’s job – we would potentially move if his job were to transfer to a new location or something like that
– We are getting the desire to add to our family if the Lord sees fit but because of all of the above I am hesitant to say, yes that sounds like a good idea! Micah doesn’t see an issue with it at all. Haha – I love his calm steadfastness in all areas of life.
So… when life seems a little out of control, I want to take control – I don’t have the reins and so I want them.
Before I was a Christian this desire to control manifested itself in a lot of unhealthy ways. This is part of what actually led me to realizing the call on my life and the surrender of self that needed to take place to the One who actually IS in control of all things.
Now that I am a Christian, this desire to control hasn’t gone away. It has just changed. I recognize it for what it is. I have more self-control (sometimes). I actually don’t worry. I do trust. However, I do still get anxious I want to know what’s next.
God has ALWAYS provided. He has always let us know what will happen when it was time and guided us sweetly. Just read about our past transitions.
I have ZERO reason to fear anything. Yet, I am anxious to know.
So last week I asked Micah to ask me the following on a regular basis:
– Did you buy anything today? Did you want to?
– How much time did you spend looking at houses?
– Did you eat?
I asked Micah to put those reins on me.
It’s been 6 years since I surrendered to the Lord, but it is a continual process.
To be able to say, I surrender ALL Lord. Where I will or won’t work, what my husband does, how many kids we have, where we live, what we do with our finances, etc.
Where do you struggle to surrender? Is it your thoughts? What you do with your time? Your money? Do you worry?
Praying that I wouldn’t hope in situations, circumstances, money, new homes, children, etc and that I would hope and rest in Him and keep my eyes fixed on eternal things. Want me to pray for you too?
5 For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence,
for my hope is from him.
6 He only is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall not be shaken.
If you have ever ridden a horse you know that having reins on a horse isn’t a bad thing. It’s all about how you guide them. If the leader is guiding gently it’s a nice ride. Sometimes we just need a little encouragement or we will go our own way or get paralyzed to where it is comfortable and eat the grass. So thankful for a husband that desires to live with his wife with understanding, even if we are so different. I love you sweets.