Monthly Archives: June 2013

Three Years.

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Three years ago, I gave myself to someone else.  It’s the best decision I ever made.    It was my favorite day in my whole life.  I don’t think I’ve ever smiled so big and hard.  I’ve never felt something to be so right or to have such peace about a decision.

I had never and never will commit to a more serious situation.

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I entered a responsibility to show my husband and the world:

  • what it looks like to die to yourself daily
  • transformation
  • what biblical manhood and womanhood look like
  • the difference between a covenant and a contract
  • the difference between commitment based on feeling and a covenant based on faith
  • grace
  • submission
  • forgiveness
  • kindness
  • self-control
  • love
  • my sin at almost all times
  • compassion
  • sacrifice
  • joy
  • patience
  • humility
  • thankfulness

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I’d be lying if I said every day since that day has been the best ever.  Sure, overall, these have been the best three years. 

However, it is a sobering thing to die to yourself daily. 

To live for and with someone else. 

To not think of yourself as number one or more highly than you ought.

To try and “out serve” one another (thanks Bill and Cindy – Micah totally wins every time).

I fail at so many of those bullets daily, multiple times a day in fact.

But by the grace of God, I am who I am, and I am HIS daughter, who chose me to be Micah’s helper and He gives me the grace to love and respect Micah.  

For the record, it’s pretty easy to love that man, except when I am being selfish.

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So a prayer for these coming years is this:

That we would show how God has designed this one-flesh union of marriage as an image of Christ and His church.

That our marriage would help people see the significance and fullness of what it means for Christ to be one with His church.  That we would realize and see the significance of it.

That we would continue to die to ourselves and live for Him without reserve of what lofty opinions we have or others think. 

That we would show Haddon (and any other little arrows if the Lord chooses) what sacrifice, servant hood, and submission in love look like.

That we would do more for the Lord together, than we ever could apart.

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Still one of my favorite passages ever.

If then you have been raised with Christ, seek the things that are above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. 2 Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth. 3 For you have died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God. 4 When Christ who is your life appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.

5 Put to death therefore what is earthly in you: sexual immorality, impurity, passion, evil desire, and covetousness, which is idolatry. 6 On account of these the wrath of God is coming. 7 In these you too once walked, when you were living in them. 8 But now you must put them all away: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and obscene talk from your mouth. 9 Do not lie to one another, seeing that you have put off the old self with its practices 10 and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge after the image of its creator. 11 Here there is not Greek and Jew, circumcised and uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave, free; but Christ is all, and in all.

12 Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience, 13 bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive. 14 And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. 15 And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful. 16 Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God. 17 And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

 

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Hungry Caterpillar 1st Birthday.

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I saw this theme back when Haddon was tiny, I think on Pottery Barn’s website… and then just started searching hungry caterpillar party on Pinterest or Etsy and well… just do it, select the links.  So see, it may not be original but I don’t care.

Haddon and I had all those eating/feeding problems and I would call him my hungry hungry hippo… so the hungry theme just kinda continued and was solidified with symbolism for me.

It brings joyful tears to my eyes to have him here with us after a whole year – he is SO healthy, growing, and an absolutely delightful child.  The Lord is good and faithful.

This message came on the tag attached to his giant hungry caterpillar:

A Message from Eric Carle: “The Very Hungry Caterpillar is about hope. You, like the little caterpillar, will grow up, unfold your wings and fly off into the future.”

As my pastor told me in pre-baby counseling; from day one you are preparing them to leave you, not for them to stay.

I might have gone a little overboard for a 1st birthday… but I love event planning so how could I not have fun with my own kid?!

My friend Brittany and I secretly scheme up doing events together professionally someday.

So here is a recap of Haddon’s 1st Birthday Party…

A few of our professional 1 yr old pictures by Lindsay Fauver Photography

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The only food served was food that the hungry caterpillar ate, so the menu was as follows:

Apples | Pears | Plums | Strawberries | Oranges | Sausage (bbq lil smokies) | Salami | Swiss Cheese | Lollipops | Cupcakes | Ice cream Cones | Pickles | Watermelon | Cake | Cherry Pie | A Green Leaf (spinach salad)

*NOTE – if the nice lady at Harris Teeter tells you that balloons will last 24hrs, do not believe it*

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Of course an extra cake because it’s his birthday –

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*I may or may not have sliced my finger open cutting up all the fruit….*

Favors were plain sugar cookies made by my mother in law and adults got to take homemade clay caterpillar bookmarks that I made.

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Guests left their favorite memories from the past year with Haddon on green dots. I will assemble them into a caterpillar of course.

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  • Invitations – etsy
  • Bracelet – etsy
  • Haddon’s jon jon – etsy
  • Felt Food – etsy
  • Shoes – Tiny Toms
  • Red Shirt – Once Upon a Child
  • Polka Dot Garland & Red Dress – my amazing friend; Brittany White
  • Printed Pictures and one year old shoot – Lindsay Fauver Photography
  • Paper and Clay Projects – Michael’s
  • Cake Head – my talented sister in law
  • Cupcake Body – Extraordinary Cupcakes
  • Fabric used as backdrop and tablecloth will be turned into a blanket or something (we are still deciding) by our pastor’s mama.

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Happy Birthday Poem.

Every year since I’ve been with Micah, I have made him a slideshow for his birthday. 

At the end of the slideshow I always read him some crazy poem I made up.

I figured the tradition must continue with Haddon! 

 

so here is Haddon’s  little birthday poem (a couple days late – it was a crazy weekend):

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Oh Haddon, happy day sweet boy.

Today marks one year since your birth.

Besides your dad, you’re my favorite thing on earth

You have such a teachable heart

I never would have guessed that from the start

I pray He will make His face shine upon you

That I would care for you well too

You are a huge part of my mission

When showing people His great commission

You are my disciple little son

We’re running this race together and the fight has already been won

I’ve never worked so hard before

There is much work to do before you go out the door

I just love you so so much, come what may

I could smell your baby skin all day

You’ve changed me in so many ways.

I promise to love you dearly all of your days

Daddy and I strive to train and develop you in every place

Truly though, it’s only by God’s grace

You are His and not our own

In this life you are just on loan

Whether its 1 year, 20 years, or 63

I am so glad that God gave you to me

You are such a delightful child

The perfect combo of meek and mild

12 Months (Almost).

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You are coming up on one year this Saturday little boy.  I have a special post for that, so I wanted to fill you in on this month so far.

You are the best and my favorite person to be around besides your daddy.

You have gotten very vocal this month.  We communicate in so many ways.  You still don’t sign… you would rather slap your tray and say “mmmm” rather than put your fingers together for more food.  I’m cool with it baby, I don’t speak any other languages either.  We are trying to teach you to say “up” instead of just whine to be held, so you scurry to us, hold on to our thighs with your head between our legs and say “pa pa pa” in the most frantic of a little voice.

We took you to the beach and pool this month with friends.  It was a blast!!! I almost dropped 12k on a pool right then and there because of how thrilled you were to be in a pool.  You went under the water a couple times, we played motor boat, and my favorite – you sat on the edge of the pool and listened to the command to “wait” until mama said “ok, come – jump” and then you would reach your little hands out to me, scoot your bum off the edge and trust me to catch you in the big pool.  I did, every time.

I always want you to trust me.

You are slowly transitioning to milk from formula… the first couple nights you woke up screaming and nothing would console you but a “baaa”.  So I gave in, because who wants to go to bed hungry?  Now, I am trying to make sure you are eating and drinking enough during the day so that doesn’t happen.

For a couple days this month you had a fever but nothing else was wrong… I stayed home with you until your fever left and loved every minute of it.  The day the fever broke you got a weird rash.  I think it was something called roseola.

You have taken a couple steps as of this morning but that’s about it.  You’ll never go back to crawling again soon. *tear*

You like to touch all buttons, light switches, doors, etc.

You definitely show your emotions these days… sad, mad, frustrated, excited, happy, funny, you name it.  While most the time you are a serious little sage and make the same face, you have no problem showing us how you feel.

You sweet son, are my greatest, hardest, fascinating, most motivating, delightful, changing, joyous, entertaining, hard earned, undeserved (in a good way), and beloved work.

He love me, He loves me not.

I can’t tell you the amount of times I questioned that little flower petal pulling saying throughout my teen years and into my early twenties.

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Thank you Micah that I never have to question that…

When I have honey do lists a mile long… and all you really want to do is relax

When I ask you to shut your drawers and the closet every night before we can go to bed

When I violently shake you until you stop snoring long enough for me to fall asleep

When I spend more money that you ever wished I would have

When I don’t make your lunches

When I pay more attention to Haddon

When I send you 1000 emails a day

When I try to talk to you about serious things at the most inconvenient times

When I say things that gross you out

When we disagree

When I don’t answer my phone

When I don’t want to talk about it

When I’d rather go for a run

When I sound accusatory

When I am not gentle

When I say things or act a certain way I know you love me, I know you’ll forgive me (and quickly), and I know you will long suffer with me.

Thank you for loving me unconditionally.  Thank you for loving me like Christ, I am so undeserving of your consistency. 

Thank you for never letting me question (even on hard days). 

Stand Still.

I was listening to a sermon this morning on the radio… I almost changed the channel because I have less than a 10 minute commute and I just wanted some tunes.  I felt compelled not to.  It was from Exodus.  Which my church is also studying… think the Lord is trying to help me get some major points? haha

Well 20 minutes later, I’m sitting in the parking garage praying, crying, scribbling notes and being late to work.

The Lord has definitely been speaking to me lately, in a way that I haven’t felt or experienced in a long time.

I won’t speak too much to the many ways He is doing this right now… I feel like it’s probably too soon and I want to use discretion and wisdom in speaking on such topics (even on my own blog).

I will say though, this both scares and excites me.  I have a feeling my standing still won’t actually physically look like standing still and yet… I will be, and God will be doing the moving.

Who knows?  Only Him in reality!

I do know though that if He moves the way I think He is moving, I want ya’ll to see it.

I want to document it.

I want His glory seen and His salvation known and people to see that He is Lord over my life.

He is Yah.

Meditate on this today (I know I will be):

If the Lord tells you to move forward He won’t let you drown, what if you never see a sea in your life part, because you are too afraid to step forward?

You are praying about it?  Great! (Me too)

Don’t use prayer as an excuse not to proceed…

Exodus 14: 13- 15

And Moses said to the people, “Fear not, stand firm, and see the salvation of the LORD, which he will work for you today. For the Egyptians whom you see today, you shall never see again.  The LORD will fight for you, and you have only to be silent.”  The LORD said to Moses, “Why do you cry to me? Tell the people of Israel to go forward.