Monthly Archives: October 2012

Great Expectations.

“while we wait for the blessed hope the glorious appearing of our great God and Savior, who gave Himself to redeem us from all wickedness.” Titus 2:13-14  

I can’t help but think of the millions of lives that were saved from the wrath of Sandy thanks to social media and technology.  I know many are suffering today and will be for a while but seriously, think of how much worse it could have been without warning.

How weird would it be if tornadoes, hurricanes, etc came from seemingly out of nowhere?

No stocking up on food.  No inviting people over to ride it out together.  No preparation.

We live in a day and age where Facebook can inform us just as much if not more than watching the news.

We can warn each other and update each other in less than a second.  How amazing.


I also can’t help but think of Christ’s return when these “events” make us all a little more expectant.

I don’t know a lot about eschatology but I think I can make the following conclusions from what I do know:

  • There will be no time to update Facebook and warn our friends.
  • There will be no time to do things differently.
  • There will be no “protecting” our things.  They won’t be coming with us.
  • There will be no helping our friends AFTER the event (like in natural disasters where we can provide relief and aid).  We must help BEFORE the event.

REPENT therefore, and turn again, that your sins may be blotted out  ACTS 3:19

But the day of the Lord will come like a thief, and then the heavens will pass away with a roar, and the heavenly bodies will be burned up and dissolved, and the earth and the works that are done on it will be exposed. 2 Peter 3:10

“If I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am.” John 14:3

“Men of Galilee, why do you stand looking into the sky? This same Jesus, who has been taken from you into heaven, will come back in the same way you have seen Him go to heaven.” – Acts 1:11

“as you eagerly wait for the Lord Jesus to be revealed. He will keep you strong to the end, so that you will be blameless on the day of our Lord Jesus Christ.” – 1 Corinthians 1:7-8

“Christ was sacrificed once to take away the sins of many people and He will appear a second time, not to bear sin, but to bring salvation to those who are waiting for Him.” Hebrews 9:27

“You turned to God from idols to serve a living and true God, and to wait for His Son from heaven, who rescues us from the wrath to come.” 1 Thessalonians 1:10
“They will be punished with everlasting destruction on the day He comes to be glorified in His holy people, and to be marveled at among all those who have believed.” 2 Thessalonians 1:9-10
“Then the lawless one will be revealed, whom the Lord Jesus will overthrow with the breath of His mouth and destroy by the splendor of His coming.” 2 Thessalonians 2:8
“Set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Christ is revealed.” 1 Peter 1:16

“Behold, I am coming soon. My reward is with me, and I will give to everyone according to what he has done.” Revelation 22:12


4 months.

3 months

2 months

1 month

You are so fun Haddon Isaiah.

You make crazy faces.

You love to blow spit bubbles.

You put everything in your mouth.

You look like the masculine version of mommy.  If you see my baby pictures they are hilariously similar.  I was even a hand sucker too.

You seem to have adjusted fine to being at the babysitters.  We are so thankful for them.

You learned to roll over (you don’t do it a lot yet).  Once we went in your room to see why you were crying in your crib, you were on your back and your little hands were clasped together.  Cutest thing ever.

You have super strong legs from standing and playing with us and your arms and chest are getting stronger all the time.

You still don’t have much hair (like at all…) I’m afraid you took after me in that area.  It will come in around the time you are two haha

You are definitely putting on the pounds thanks to the mixed milkshake of breast milk and formula.

You seem to have found your voice.  Now not only do you coo and try to imitate us, you have started “screaming & squealing”.

I seriously value our time together now, and I’m pretty mama bear about protecting it… our family is in a very busy season of life right now.

I don’t bother to heat your bottle because well, I don’t want you to have too strong a preference to things a certain way (besides swaddling, will you ever want your arms free at night?).  It’s why I don’t put on white noise for you or always make you sleep in the same place.  I want you to be flexible and roll with the punches.  This family does not have one week that looks the same!

I’ve realized if I want to spend more time with you I have to get up earlier and I have to get home earlier.

At 3 ½ months I let you CIO a couple times… it breaks my heart to hear you cry but when you are fed, burped, changed, comfy, have been cuddled and sung to, it is time to sleep and you will go to sleep on your own after 10 minutes.  At first I thought this would traumatize you and that you would hold it against me.  You don’t, when you wake up again you are as smiley as ever, and then I don’t feel bad.  I know it will be good for all of us in the long run.  I hope it is the beginning of me trying to teach you to be able to control your emotions and soothe yourself someday.

I’ve shed tears at the last two weddings during the daughter/father & mother/son songs.  Not out of sadness for when you leave us someday but out of excitement and sentiment about the man you will become.  If you are anything like your daddy you will be an amazing husband and father and the very thought of you blessing a woman someday like your daddy blesses me makes me excited and so so thankful to get to help teach you how.

I wonder more about you now than when I was pregnant with you.  Before it was more about your physical features – Who will he look like? Will he have ten fingers and toes? Etc!  Now I wonder about your personality, your favorite things, more and more about the person you are becoming and wondering how I pour into your soul and love you for who God is shaping you to be and wondering how I won’t “force” my own preferences, etc on you and let you have room to become the man you were created to be.  I wonder how to find that balance…

One time you scratched your nose.  One time you had a lot of snot.  One time you threw up.  I semi freaked.  Your papa tells me I better get ready because you are a boy… what does that mean?..

You teach me a lot little boy and you motivate me like nothing else in this world.  I wish I was so diligent in all areas of my life.

You sweet little one, are my greatest, hardest, fascinating, and most motivating work.

A Muddled Mind.

Through tears I confessed at bible study my prayer request: “insecurity”

So many roles and yet I’m not fully invested in one very well.

A wife, a mom, a worker, a family member, a friend, the list goes on but most importantly – daughter of the King.

Lately, I don’t feel as though I do one of those roles really well.  I’m terribly distracted while being any and all of them at the same time.  That makes me feel very insecure.

I can’t explain why.  Micah wouldn’t say that.  Haddon couldn’t say that.  I still have a job.  The Lord promises to never leave me or forsake me.

I read an article about how we are creating a culture of distraction, and just to prove my point I didn’t even get through the whole article before starting to write this blog.

15 tabs up at once

2 phones on at all times

The TV or music on at home

5 tasks going at once

Multiple games going on

More than a handful of conversations

My attention is dragged from one thing to another in a split second, probably a million times a day.

How am I supposed to be still and know that He is God?  When my mind won’t stay still for a single second?

How do we train our minds to focus on things above when there are a trillion things going on in our lives and those around us at all times?

I don’t want to be so much of a “multi-tasker” that I waste my days thinking and doing lots of things, but none of them well.

I want to hear Him say “well done good and faithful servant”.

Trying to figure out what, where, and who exactly the Lord wants me to serve well.

Would you pray for me too?

New Mom Muffins.

My mother in law stayed with Haddon and I the first week back to work while Micah was in training.

There is so much I could say about what a blessing that was.  She was so truly sacrificial and served us so well.  I’m talking taking care of Haddon, me, grocery shopping, meal planning/making, lunches made, personal photographer and much more!


– I survived the first week of work just fine.

– There is a deep dish freezer in my garage with more than 10 frozen meals.

– My son knows his grandmother better (for now…I wish he could remember this time, I know I always will!)

– She left this.

When she was a working mama with her first, her friend and her would take turns making these:

Bran Muffins –

(dough can be kept in fridge for 4-6 weeks)

1 1/2 c sugar

1/2 c oil

2 eggs

2 c buttermilk

2 1/2 c flour

1/2 tsp salt

2 1/2 tsp soda


2 c allbran cereal

1 c bran flakes

1 c raisins

1 c nuts

Bake in greased tin 400′ for 15-20min

You make a huge batch and it can be kept in the fridge for 4 – 6 weeks! Just pop some in muffin tins in the morning for a fresh, healthy, and tasty breakfast!

we had a great 10 days together and I loved learning from her Titus 2 style.  Younger women just need to be around older more experienced women.

Thanks for everything Mama Downs, including this delicious recipes I hope now other moms get to enjoy.